My Gradual Fade Away From Music
I thought it would be helpful to write down what I've been feeling for a while now.
In a few days, I'll be 32 years old. I've been rethinking some things. I've been having a rough time with this "music technology as a career" thing. It's just not working out the way I thought it would. I don't feel like I made it. Bad choices? Bad luck? Probably a mix of both.
So, I'm pivoting. No more "Music Tech" career. Just "Tech". Music is a crutch.
Music has been the cornerstone of my identity for over 2 decades. Recently, my relationship with Music has been strained and distant. I've got a lot of bad feelings associated with it. My 20s were full of smiling faces taking stuff away from me, and I'm bitter and resentful about it.
We'll see where music will belong in my life moving forward. But, if I have to, I'm ready to let it go. I'm tired.